In the readings of the past week we have heard about, and we prepare for, the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Our priest explained to us how he was pulled by the spirit to ignore his prepared homily and preach by the Spirit. This is a feeling I know all so well. My question is, how do I find spiritual courage? I have found that the gifts given can come as boldly as a loud clashing of a cymbal and also as timidly as a quiet whisper. The thing is, although He is very strong and persuasive, I can be very weak. I feel The Spirit can push me in a way that I might boldly stand out in front of a crowd, but through experience I have also found out that the people are quickly ready to stone me for my different view on things. How is it that the spirit fills my heart with so much joy that I have no choice but to follow but, at the same time that extreme unexplainable joy is followed by doubt. For me it's like Satan and his followers want to put a halt to any work He is asking me to do. I want so badly to live my life giving everything to Him. How do I courageously stand ready for what ever might become of me. How do I find that kind of courage? The kind I read about in the bible. All I can do is pray every day as the disciples did," Increase my faith." And hope that my courage increases to the likeness of the ones I have read about.
"COME HOLY SPIRIT, COME BY MEANS OF THE POWERFUL INTERCESSION OF THE IMMACULATE HEART OF MARY, YOUR WELL BELOVED SPOUSE." " COME HOLY SPIRIT I LEAVE MY LIFE OPEN TO YOU, DO WITH ME AS YOU WISH."